This is cigar related to a degree because it is about my favorite cigar board web site. I posted it there and the only response I got was to make sure that I wasn't despondent, which is nice but I don't think anyone there made a connection.

I see you dying and don't know what to do.
I see you dying and want to save you.
I see you dying and it breaks my heart.
You have seen me through highs and lows.
You have taught me so much.
You have allowed me to teach.
So few now visit you anymore.
So few now take advantage of your lore.
So few now contribute to your knowledge store.
Do I mask my pain by pretending it is not true.
Do I mask my sorrow by not visiting today.
Do I mask my anger by putting on a happy face.
I need to fight to keep you alive.
I need to fight to preserve your dignity.
I need to fight to ensure you stay.
I see you dying and don't know what to do.
I see you dying and want to save you.
I see you dying and it breaks my heart.

As you can see it is very dark but hey life is dark sometimes, now lets go smoke a good cigar.